After My Move

 After my move, I became even more protective over my children and myself. My girls couldn't understand why I was so protective. It was because from this point forward, I no longer had a second pair of eyes to help me with them. It was extremely important that I set the tone for the way that our new home would run. Months after, they understood my reasoning.

I found myself trying to figure out how to recreate my life. Learning myself over again. Moving slowly, and actually taking the time to notice things. The very first thing that I took an interest in was the hummingbird. Never a lover of birds, I thought that they were beautiful! It seemed as though one would visit my office window everyday! So much to the point that I began looking for it and when I saw it, I would smile. The next thing that caught my attention was listening to birds chirping and singing throughout the day. The sound was soothing to me where prior to my move, things were chaotic and I couldn't hear a thing.  I began teaching myself how to appreciate nature and things that money could not buy. Thus giving me a new appreciation for my own life and life in general.

I've never been a big lover of plants. I found myself taking care of one plant, observing the leaves and watching it come to life as I cared for it. I looked at people in a different way because my daily outlook was now permanently altered based on a decision that I made. It made me gentle to what others may be experiencing. Companionship was gone but life was/is still good. I'm lonelier than I've ever been in my life but I have THE MOST peace of mind than I've ever had in my life and peace of mind is priceless. I was talking to a friend of mine in 2006 and I will never forget the words that were spoken. He said "It's ok to step your lifestyle down to secure your happiness" and he was correct. Ok, so I'm not in a two story four bedroom home with a pool, movie theatre and all of the creature comforts that I am accustomed to. I'm in a condo, I have my faith, grace, mercy, children, love, freedom and peace of mind.

I'm happy!