After being with my ex husband for over 20 years, dating and living together for 7 years and married for 14 years, I was encouraged by family and friends to create this blog. The blog not only serves as an area in which I share some of the same peace and pain as others but it also allows many people to share their thoughts and experiences with me and to simply release it so that life is lived abundantly. It's a common ground for people to willingly interact.
I met my ex-husband when I was 18 years old and he was 33 years old. I am now 40. More evolved, much wiser and for once in life, I feel as though I have a voice and I am making decisions for my own life and for my children's lives without second guessing myself or asking for permission as a sign of approval that what I am doing is correct.
At 18 I was molded quickly. Learning to carry myself in an older manner to fit into the crowd that we were around. It was a blessing because I learned a lot but still hard because of jokes being made, jokes that I didn't get due to my lack of experience also conversation that I had to keep up with.
It took a while before I earned the respect of the company that we kept, friends and relatives. I was very passive and wanted to please everyone especially my husband without taking notice that I wasn't pleasing myself. This went on for years.
Thank you so much for opening up and sharing. You have an attentive and supportive reader in me!
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