What a great feeling it is to be whole again. I have surrounded myself with a small group of great friends that have my best interest at heart. My girls are happy... Kobi is now in college on the East Coast creating a life that she has longed to live and Kelli, a sophomore enjoys school and the perks of feeling like an only child.
It's amazing the way life pulls you. I went from having no time for myself while caring for everyone else to having a plethora of time with hardly a thing to do some days. I am more familiar with myself and I know what I like. Simple things make me happy. Now I set daily goals for myself, nothing too strenuous and it's not everyday. My list must be complete and I hold myself accountable which I like. Yesterday after work, it was... make dinner & eat, wash my hair, workout, read, write in my journal, pray, tidy up the girls room (since they are away), relax, watch football and get to bed at a decent hour.
It was enough for me. My heart was calm, I didn't feel pressured and my tasks were complete. I have learned over the last two years and I literally live by this...If it doesn't feel good in my heart or my spirit then I will not do it. No need to contemplate at all, I simply forget about it or revisit it at a later time. Life is much easier this way. Living life on my terms.
Find your tempo if you haven't already. A glide in your footsteps that God has created just for you. It becomes a peaceful stride.
